TOPIC: Started on Red Malay yesterday.

jayisk wrote: Whats up Robie.., of course i will be in your campaign

Was luckily enough to pick up C-diff in 2014 while working in a hospital. I had 4 hospitalizations ranging from 5 to 10 days. Yes the contact precaution is nice in that you have your own room.
Had 5 colonoscopy's during that lovely time.
My last hospital stay they had me on pretty much 4 of the strongest antibiotics running IV 24/7. this was obv. after starting with the basic oral like flagyl and working my way up.

it was like an episode of the TV show "House."I had 4 dr's and a handful of residents standing around me saying we have never seen a case this bad and dont know what to do..i love hearing that.

i had IBS since i was a child so going to the bathroom 10 to 20 times a day wasnt even the worse part. Then you have that toxic smell.
What brought me to the E.R. each time was the severe abdominal pain. Felt as if someone stuck a hand up my anus and was trying to pull my intestines out.
They hit me with IV morphine that did nothing. Then i got a shot of hydromorphone {Dilaudid} which is 4 x's stronger than pure heroin. I was clean from opiates from 2006 but once I felt that in my system in 2014 that changed everything.
Long story short when i got home and found out hydromorphone has a very low absorption rate orally.., well the good old drug addict in me started taking it the way you get 100% absorption. And then the love affair with the needle again.
Ended up needing a fecal transplant and was unable to when off hydromorphone so i got into an I.O.P. and starting taking subs.
This was 2014 into 2016..,rough time along with 5 other hospital stays..,3 for Bronchitis.
Its times like that when you are suffering and all alone with the possibility of dying that having "spirituality" in your life really comes in handy.

stay strong,
brother!

Oh my goodness jayisk! You are a walking miracle! I don't know which came first the Crohn's or the C-DIFF. I was on heavy prescription opiates at the time I contracted C-DIFF. I think that's why I walked around so long with it. I identify with everything you're saying brother. I've nearly died 3 times in my life. All from high fevers. You aren't even there for it if you get my meaning. You aren't there. Not really. The last time I nearly died from fever I remember praying TO take me. You're not in your right mind at 105.3. Not for 6 hours of it. I remember the ice baths, alcohol rubs in the hospital. Horror. Pure horror. I have a very strong faith in the spiritual. Have you ever experienced, what I call for lack of a better term, the "Honey From God"? It only last a few seconds at most. It can not be sustained. I realized this after I had experienced it quite a few times. It's like multiplying any of your greatest pleasure times a million. There is a beautiful clarity and inner vision that's beyond belief. We aren't set up for that. We are unable to stay there long because it would kill us. I know it sounds unbelievable but it's there and it's tangible. Even with all the stuff I've gone through in my life I feel soooo incredibly blessed. Everything I have had a "hard judgement" against I have had to live through. That's quite a blessing when you really ponder it. I've come to a personal belief that no matter the road traveled? All roads are leading to God. It doesn't matter how you address or choose to name the devine. All roads are leading back. And I'm trying to stay as non secular as I can. I'm not trying to offend anyone's beliefs. I respect them.

Thank you jay. I enjoyed chatting with you today. We have traveled some similar roads. Stay well. Be blessed and thank you so much for the chat. I've had my soul nourished so much since joining this forum. I do love kind and gentle natured souls.

Robie

Robie- Tone it down, you're full of baloney.

Haven't heard your platform yet, other than we all can't stand corrupt politicians. Figure out how to straighten that mess out without going full dictator, we might have something.

Super small dose seemed to help a bit. Less of the unwanted reaction but less of the good as well.

ETC wrote: Robie- Tone it down, you're full of baloney.

Haven't heard your platform yet, other than we all can't stand corrupt politicians. Figure out how to straighten that mess out without going full dictator, we might have something.

Super small dose seemed to help a bit. Less of the unwanted reaction but less of the good as well.

LOL !!! Fair enough! I told you I needed that! I hope it works out for you ETC.

Be blessed,

Robie

wow I missed an eventful day! after reading your stories robie and jay I went from a tear to a smile from you etc!!! im sad that you all had to experience that, but it has for sure made you stronger men. physically and emotionally. im glad we all found this magical leaf and are on this journey together.

sorry robie I hope you had a great day. not trying to blow anyone off im in the 'peak season' of my work so 'gone' 12 hrs or so at a time. you are all in my thoughts and prayers always

michele373 wrote: wow I missed an eventful day! after reading your stories robie and jay I went from a tear to a smile from you etc!!! im sad that you all had to experience that, but it has for sure made you stronger men. physically and emotionally. im glad we all found this magical leaf and are on this journey together.

sorry robie I hope you had a great day. not trying to blow anyone off im in the 'peak season' of my work so 'gone' 12 hrs or so at a time. you are all in my thoughts and prayers always

Hello Michele! Thank you for the prayers. I think they're one of the greatest gifts we give to each other. Don't work too hard. I'm praying you find yourself under a Magnolia tree someday in full bloom!!

Be blessed and thank you again.

Robie

i like the red vein variety best, the green seems too make me sleepy, but the red gives me energy,and helps with the pain

catspaw,

youre an opposite like my husband! he did try some of my white mang da jong kong and didn't want to sleep which is good but odd lol. reds make me sleepy if they do much at all.

robie,

I might whine and cry at times but its all good. keeps me out of trouble ( most of the time! lol ) and makes paying the bills a lot easier, and im hourly not a 'salary sucker' as I call them hehe, just in my business too many times they take advantage...anyways im rambling.. keep smelling the roses I hope you are feeling well and your new leaf journey makes you giddy like a schoolboy!